Healing from your past traumas can be extremely hard and very messy. You will have your ups and you will have your downs. There will be days that you struggle so bad that you just do not want to face the the day. There will be days that you feel like you made steps forward in your healing. Dealing with both of those will be part of your healing process.
I know first hand that it is extremely hard to face your past traumas. One day in therapy, my therapist asked about the sexual abuse I have gone through. It cought me off guard. I was not ready to talk about it. I was really upset that he even asked. With talking about it I realized the importance of getting it out. Yes it was very painful and I cried a lot in that therapy session. As I look at it now, I know I made progress in my healing that day.
Now I can talk about the things I have gone through without tears. I can honestly say the names of the man who sexual abuse me without being triggered and bad memories coming up. I am happy that my therapist had pushed me that day because I know that helped with my healing. I can feel changes in my life now. I am definitely happier now then I was in January.
During the healing process we are going to feel many different emotions. It’s what we do with the emotions that counts. If you are angry, use that angry to broke the chains that hold you down. Maybe you are feel really sad. It is okay to be sad. After you are done cry, it time to get up and fight for the healing you deserve! You can live the best life you deserve, by showing the people who had hurt you that you are strong. That you are going to come out of this and not let them control you anymore
Freedom
Letting go
Setting free
Feeling lighter
Feeling brighter
Sadness fading
Happiness trading
Forever becoming
Goodbye fear
Without a tear
Feeling free
Above the tree
Looking forward
Walking toward
Freedom at least
No more past
By: Amanda Higelmire
