On my walk today I was thinking about my struggle with depression. How do I know when I am starting to get depressed? What are the reasons I am getting depressed? Lastly, what can I do that will help me get out of my depression? Sometimes it is hard for me to answer those questions. But today I was digging really deep within myself to figure them out.
I will start with the first question. So, how do I know when I am starting to get depressed? I noticed my mind starts racing with negative thoughts. I think things like “I am unloved, I dont have any worth, I am ugly, etc.” I get so deep in those thoughts that I start to cut off communication with the people that has been there for me through this struggle. I would feel like a burden to them if I call. I would start sleeping a lot more, stop texting my friends, and not go outside. It will keep going until I am so deep in the depression that I can not get out.
Now for the second question, what are the reasons I am getting depressed? There could be many different reasons I am getting depressed. I noticed the main reason is I do not get enough sleep at night. I may have trouble falling asleep or staying asleep. I could of had a bad phone call from some telling me everything that I do wrong. That everything was my fault. I know for a fact when I start to feel lonely then that’s when my depression hits harder.
What can I do that will help me when I am depressed? This is a hard one because once I get deep in the depression I just want to lay around and do nothing. When I was thinking about it on my walk I came up with things that could help. Things like going on a nature walk, yoga, writing, coloring, and anything art. Doing those things gives me the satisfaction that I am doing something good and I have purpose.
If you are struggling with depression and do not know what to do, talk about it with someone. This is the first thing you should do. Find someone you trust and if you feel like you do not have anyone I can talk to you. Also, find something you like to do that makes you feel like you have purpose. Lastly, do so physical activity. Doing any type of physical activity will help your depression. It does not have to be hard. It could be walking, yoga or even dancing!