Depression. Anxiety. PTSD. Abuse. Eating disorder. Cutting.
All of those words are apart of my story. I had an abusive father. I was sexually abused. Then I was in a mentally abusive relationship. With all those traumatic experiences I started to develop an eating disorder. I started to cut my arm. I felt unloved, unworthy, ugly, and I will never be good enough for anyone.
In January I ended up really depressed and I was cutting my arm pretty much everyday. One day, I had a panic attack at work and I decide I wanted to end my life. I had the plan in place. Then a friend noticed something was wrong and stepped in and helped me. I am so thankful for her, she saved my life.
If you are reading this and you feel unworthy of love, that you are never going to be good enough, or you life is so out of control you can not do it anymore. You are loved, you are worthy. There is someone in your life that does care so much about you and would miss you if you are gone. Your parents, spouse, kids, friends or co workers will miss you. Reach out for help! I am here if you need to talk.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You are someone to somebody!
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255